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Wednesday, January 15, 2014

Update: Real World. Real Stress.

I think it's finally hit me. I have a real job. I entered the real world. Although that comes along with a lot of perks and advantages (like making money, moving out on your own, and establishing your career as well as yourself), it also comes with stress. 

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I guess it really hit me today because I had my first true hard day at work. A day I made my first mistake. I don't deal well with doing things wrong or failing. So messing up on a project at work, although not the end of the world, put me in a funk for the rest of the day. It also made me realize the reality of where I am in my life. 

No longer are the days of sleeping in til noon, staying in bed a couple hours longer, and dilly dallying all day (whether online, reading, or shopping). Now days are filled -- and I mean an every-hour kind of filled -- with early mornings, excel sheets, late dinners, and bed (wake up and repeat). Everyone warned me that I wouldn't have time to even breathe but I didn't listen. I would make time. Who was I kidding?

I should have taken my unemployed days and checked off all my empty boxes on my numerous To-Do lists. I should have taken the time to fully organize my room and closet. I should have used every free day to learn more skills necessary to revamp my blog -- and then gone ahead and revamped it. Shoulda, shoulda, shoulda. But I didn't. And now I'm here. Exhausted on the train back home, where I'll most likely eat a quick dinner, slip into my pajamas, and get ready for bed. The same routine. 

But there's so much more I want to be doing with my time! I so desperately want to have the time and energy to focus on my blog --its design and its content. I want to create all the DIYs I always planned to (being planner-less while I'm trying to design my own is a big pain in the butt!). I want to learn new things and become better at things like InDesign and web design. I want to simply work out once in a while! Being out of the house for over 12 hours a day makes doing those things kind of hard. But hey! Beyonce has the same number of hours in a day as I do, right?!
So here's to attempting to do more. Whether it's a 20 minute at-home workout in my room, writing a short post before bed, or picking up a section of my room, I aim to do it. I guess you could say this is my big 2014 resolution.

Day by day as I read the blogs I follow (or attempt to before my eyes are begging for sleep), I realize just how much I want to grow and expand my blog. Right now it is just barely a tiny seed. And that's okay! There's still so much I want to do to this little seed before I plant it and let it grow to it's full potential. But I want it to happen. And I plan on making it happen. 
What are some things you wish you had more time to do? How do you plan on finding more time to do them?


  1. My boyfriend got his first full time job now that he has graduated and he feels the same way. It is kind of scary. I'm not ready to not have time for myself! Good luck getting more of the stuff you want done. Maybe you can use some time on the train or while you are making dinner to get some additional goals finished?

    Amanda Rose