I guess it really hit me today because I had my first true hard day at work. A day I made my first mistake. I don't deal well with doing things wrong or failing. So messing up on a project at work, although not the end of the world, put me in a funk for the rest of the day. It also made me realize the reality of where I am in my life.
No longer are the days of sleeping in til noon, staying in bed a couple hours longer, and dilly dallying all day (whether online, reading, or shopping). Now days are filled -- and I mean an every-hour kind of filled -- with early mornings, excel sheets, late dinners, and bed (wake up and repeat). Everyone warned me that I wouldn't have time to even breathe but I didn't listen. I would make time. Who was I kidding?
I should have taken my unemployed days and checked off all my empty boxes on my numerous To-Do lists. I should have taken the time to fully organize my room and closet. I should have used every free day to learn more skills necessary to revamp my blog -- and then gone ahead and revamped it. Shoulda, shoulda, shoulda. But I didn't. And now I'm here. Exhausted on the train back home, where I'll most likely eat a quick dinner, slip into my pajamas, and get ready for bed. The same routine.
But there's so much more I want to be doing with my time! I so desperately want to have the time and energy to focus on my blog --its design and its content. I want to create all the DIYs I always planned to (being planner-less while I'm trying to design my own is a big pain in the butt!). I want to learn new things and become better at things like InDesign and web design. I want to simply work out once in a while! Being out of the house for over 12 hours a day makes doing those things kind of hard. But hey! Beyonce has the same number of hours in a day as I do, right?!
So here's to attempting to do more. Whether it's a 20 minute at-home workout in my room, writing a short post before bed, or picking up a section of my room, I aim to do it. I guess you could say this is my big 2014 resolution.
Day by day as I read the blogs I follow (or attempt to before my eyes are begging for sleep), I realize just how much I want to grow and expand my blog. Right now it is just barely a tiny seed. And that's okay! There's still so much I want to do to this little seed before I plant it and let it grow to it's full potential. But I want it to happen. And I plan on making it happen.
What are some things you wish you had more time to do? How do you plan on finding more time to do them?